Week 23A – Boundaries, You Might Be A Mini-Me

Healthy boundaries are, or rather have been an enigma to me. I’m risk here and be absolutely transparent like tissue paper… I have weak boundaries. I feel like I’m at the lectern in an AA meeting, and just as sober as though I’m a regular.

As Teal Swan shares in this video called “I Can Have Me and I Can Have You Too”, I tend to “cave” and let my boundaries be broken and disregarded. The MKMMA experience is helping me become a much better observer of my existing blueprint in this respect. I have 50+ years of programming to break down so it takes every day being conscious and observant to ferret out these tendencies, and expose them like film lying in the activating chemicals that bring the images to life.

In our Silence exercise, I was amazed that I spent much of my time contending with “monkey mind”. That state of thought described as running around in your head being unable to concentrate and focus on one thing. This week, in combination with the emotional exercises, I came to recognize that the list of things that drove me nearly crazy were all lists of duties and commitments to other people (many of which violated my boundaries). These are old counter-productive habits, that need to be eradicated.  Their extinction will bring me more health and an Acceptance/Defenselessness attitude to be more in alignment with the Law of Least Effort.

This last week with Scroll VI I’ll be watching to see why I might feel Sad, or Depressed of worst of all because it is the “opposite of money consciousness” as Haanel puts it. I know I have the tools to change it but, driving to the root and learning how to proactively build a new blueprint that supports my emotional system is where I want to be. More than anything, I want to be a solid, assertive and well-balance individual, capable of being alone all the while happy to be a part of the larger Universal plan as well. Is this not fulfilling my purpose? I am coming to realize that “Money has no value except to bring about the conditions we desire, and these conditions are necessarily harmonious. Harmonious conditions necessitate sufficient supply, so that if there appears to be any lack, we should realize that the idea or soul of money is service, and as this thought takes form, channels of supply will be opened, and you will have the satisfaction of knowing that spiritual methods are entirely practical.” ~ Charles F Haanel

I hope you and I both are able to find and strike that balance that makes us both happy with ourselves, responsible yet not self-critical and supportive of others through service as our spirit beckons us to be and thus fulfill our purpose.

 

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Week 2 – Conscious Mind Be Still

Strawberry Pie

This week’s reading of Haanel included the phrase as follows in line 5;

“Ease and perfection depend entirely upon the degree in which we cease to depend upon the consciousness” ~ Charles F. Haanel

Wow, what an epiphany! It is we who believe and obstruct our mysterious mind from delivering on our deepest desires. You know how you had a brother or sister who constantly adjusts the radio channel to get it perfect, or changes it over and over again just when you are getting into a particular tune. Remember how annoying that felt? Well, that annoying little squirt is you (in this case me)! This is the shiny object syndrome we all are infected with due to information and technology overload.

I, in particular, am definitely one who would raise my hand to say yes to an array of symptoms similar to ADD/ADHD. I fall prey to always thinking that new might be better and therefore I adjust my sails nearly unaware that I am inadvertently changing the order I have sent to my subby (subconscious mind). It’s like that lovely strawberry pie is nearly done and I tell my mother that I want to have chocolate cake for my birthday instead of pie. Dutiful mother that she is, she dampens the frustration and proceeds to get ingredients together only to have me change my mind again just before the cake comes out of the oven! Not only does this dither away time but, it denies she and I both gratitude, a reinforcer of our relationship and of achievement.

In the end, the habit of completing a task and the joy of its achievement is denied!

Haanel’s point is that the conscious mind makes decisions and the subby acts upon them as though they are a from order for that strawberry pie. This is the perfect order of things. You may not see the final pie yet (it’s still in the oven) but, your SOS (Shiny Object Syndrome) then intercedes and alters the order. In the end, you starve!

Focus, repetition, honest clear choices and firm commitment are what is required to have the subby work in the background to assemble all the ingredients and deliver your pie. After all isn’t that what you and your senses, even your soul has been craving?

Once you have made a commitment to achieve something, with absolute clarity, infused with the emotions anticipated at the moment of fulfillment, hush… and let the subby do the rest.

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